Very Best Mama

Writing is the only thing I’ve ever really felt good at. It’s scary to admit that because I immediately wonder if you are thinking how terrible I am at the only thing I’ve ever felt good at. But, so be it. I’ve spent a great deal of my life either, not doing the things I want to, out of fear. Or, carefully constructing myself into something I think most people would find desirable, out of fear.

In her song, “Last Kiss” Taylor Swift sings the lyric, “all that I know, is I don’t know, how to be something you’d miss.” That line has always killed me because I have related to the sentiment too many times.

It is January 22nd, 2023 and I have once again taken up blogging. This has been a sort of hobby of mine for more than a decade. I picked up blogging after I fell in love with a variety of inspiring, creative, aesthetically pleasing blogs. Lifestyle, cooking, photography, travel blogs. You name it, over the years I have probably tried it on for size. I felt capable as a writer but writing never seemed enough. I needed a beautiful space overflowing with inspiration, beautiful pictures, and creativity. The thing is, I am not great at photographing my life or my cooking or my fitness journey. I hate documenting a diy project and my words felt forced. I would pump myself up and just as promptly lose interest and enthusiasm. I’d berate myself for being a terrible failure and remind myself of all my creative and personal shortcomings. I’d stop blogging long enough that it felt uncomfortable to just pop back in and so I’d reinvent myself and pop back in.

I desperately want this to be different, so I’m going to be different. There will be no schedule, no aesthetic focus, no elaborate and expensive projects. Just me, writing whatever words come to mind. For 3 months, I promised my husband and myself, that I would write daily and post what I write at least weekly. The goal being 12 posts by April 22nd and then I will start promoting. So, for the next 3 months, I am going to write my heart out and share as often as I can. I decided to just name each post the date, since seo isn’t a thing until I’m ready to promote.

I am ignoring blog design, page setup, tags and keywords and anything that might distract from the goal, which is to write about my life with as much honesty as I can bear. I hope that if you are reading this you found my blog after I accomplished my goal of posting for 3 months. I hope that you stumbled across a promoted post and have slogged your way from that post through the archives. I hope that you will visit here often and that we will get to know each other.

sincerely, Kayla